The Mess Behind Control

Time slips away
Burying my past obsessions
Time slips away
Getting lost in my new confessions
Thought it was bright
To keep rewriting
The parts of me you’ve never seen
Silence grow louder
I try to come clean
But I vanish somewhere in between

Every time You look at me I drown
In all the lies i tell myself and I
Keep you somewhere outside the line
Pretend I’m made of stone
In the mess behind control
Cause falling for you terrifies my soul

I joke when I bleed
No one knows I’m breaking
I whisper through screams
Call it self awakening
Then you smile like you know
You’re standing too close
Pulling back the version I chose
Truth doesn’t fit every dream
So I settle for what’s in between

Every time You look at me I drown
In all the lies i tell myself and I
Keep you somewhere outside the line
You’re closer than you know
In the mess behind control
Falling for you terrifies my soul