I’ve Always Been

I hold it in
Playing the moment over again
Till I resent
The loneliness
Knowing the words I wanted to say but
Kept in
Will I ever put it all out?
Take the words, write it down, say it out loud
Am I ever gonna come down
From the haze that I made when I ran out?

I hate acting like I’m all alright
Tell myself I’m gonna need some time
Pull the curtains, let the sunlight in
And I’ll be fine, I’ve always been

I fill the time
Passing it by, not trying to loath
I promise
I haven’t cried
Think my emotion’s gone if I am
Being honest
Will I ever put it all out?
Take the words, write it down, say it out loud
Am I ever gonna come down
From the haze that I made when I ran out?

I hate acting like I’m all alright
Tell myself I’m gonna need some time
Pull the curtains, let the sunlight in
And I’ll be fine, I’ve always been

I hate knowing that it’s in my mind
Tell myself I can’t just turn back time
I step back and try to take it in
And I’ll be fine, I’ve always been

I’m no longer keeping score
Don’t care who is at my door

I hate acting like I’m all alright
Tell myself I’m gonna need some time
Pull the curtains, let the sunlight in
And I’ll be fine, I’ve always been

I hate knowing that it’s in my mind
Tell myself I can’t just turn back time
I step back and try to take it in
And I’ll be fine, I’ve always been

I’ve always been
And I’ll be fine, I’ve always been